There are days when you have to try harder — to smile, to meet others, or even simply to get up from bed. There are days when the temptation is strong to simply lie under the covers, shun conversations, be in the company of books all day, surf the net mindlessly, or do a solitary walk all day.
This feeling seems out of place especially during the Christmas season, when people are expected to be happy and to be with family and friends. But this Christmas is different. Many people are hurting. Many lost a loved one because of the pandemic. Many lost their jobs. Some are grappling with personal challenges and changes.
Personally, I used to be very optimistic, lively and upbeat. But things happened. So, here I was, on a Christmas morning, convincing myself to get up. And I did. It took almost half an hour, but I did. It needed a little push. (Plus a look at my furry feline companions sleeping peacefully and two looking at me with their sleepy eyes.)
It can be hard to be always the strong or needed one because sometimes you feel, how nice it would be if even for a moment, someone can handle things, tell you to just rest and relax and assure you that everything will be all right.
I don’t know why I’m being a Grinch now thinking of how the past Christmases were so different and why, the season seems to be devoid of meaning aside from having a break from work. But as in all difficulties I experienced, I just needed to consciously try steer my mind towards a different mindset, go on with my day and continue what I set to do.
I got up, relished my weekend breakfast, sent Christmas messages to family and friends, headed out for a bit of lakwatsa, and had a Christmas dinner with my family.
To all those feeling sad or lonely or empty this Christmas season, please know that it is just temporary and that things will be all right. Sending my love your way. ❤
Happy Holidays! May 2022 be better and brighter for everyone.